Tuesday 30 December 2014

पल भर की मुलाकात

वो हमारी बात
तुम्हारी खनकती आवाज़
जॅेसे की हो सदियों के बाद मुलाकात
वो तेरी आवाज़।

तेरे होठों से निकले  वो शब्द
जॆसे कर दें मुझे स्तब्ध
शब्दों के बीच लगाए वो विराम
जॆसे करना चाहते हो कोई ऎलान।

उन विरामो के बीच बहुत सी कहानियां हैं
जिसने बिना कुछ कहे, कुछ सुना दिया हैं
उस आवाज़ में  तेरी जेसे कोई जहर हैं
असर हे तेरा मुझपे, शाम या सहर हैं।

वो चन्द घडियो का आमना सामना
जॆसे छुपे हों राज कई इनमें
कुछ कही कुछ अनकही सी बातें
सॆकडो रातें अनगिनत यादें।

मेने भी तुमसे  कुछ ना कहा
ना रोका ना टोका ना रुकने को कहा
हमने तो बस लम्हो से कहा, रुको
ये मजा मुझे, हॊले हॊले चखने दो।

Friday 26 December 2014

More than fully

I sit here in my room
Overlooking the verandah
And I have seen everything
Unfold before my eyes

The journey has been beautiful
I lived what was provided to me
And what was given to me as begger
Getting away from my own debris

And then I stole few moments
I know they weren't part of my plate
And I looked at yours
And wanted to rewrite the slate

So I just stole few from yours
And lived the way I wanted to
Accepted them to be part of me
Including what I had and what I didn't
Now I guess, I lived my life more than fully

Waiting for you

She had been waiting for me for hours
And I tell her not to wait
Be late sometimes
And let me wait for her

Or just be angry
Say that she can't take it anymore
And wouldn't meet me if I'm not on time
Probably that's my only cure

But she still comes on time
I try to make it but I can't
And she never complains
Meets me with her smiling face

I ask her what's the secret
How's she so content
Waiting for me for hours
Or is it only pretense

She smiles and looks at me
This is something you may never see
When I wait for you, I think of you more
I long and I imagine different conversations
That we might be having with each other

So when I wait for you
I'm not alone
You're still here with me
In different ways, in different forms
Then when I see you, my love for you is re-born

Tuesday 23 December 2014

Thank everyone and Lord

I think I'm over you
Don't love you anymore
But I still want you
But I am not that sore

God knows why
Is it because you are unique
What is it that makes me cry
And makes me go weak

Is it because you have changed my life
Made it so beautiful
That I just love hanging on to you
And our love

Just don't know whom to thank
You, my destiny or God
I just love myself more
So I thank everyone and the Lord.

Tuesday 16 December 2014

Terror!

What wrong did I do you
Why was I killed
and 100 others like me
Didn't even know who you were

We all think like that
Close our eyes to the events
and then one day, it comes to our home
We have nothing to say
Just feel cheated and broken

However instable my region may be
We live and expect to grow
I wonder if we are anywhere safe in the world
Coz terror shows its face everywhere we go!

Monday 15 December 2014

Only if they know!

Only if they know
They would be jealous of me
They find a million reasons
But only those that they can see

Some pity for what I have been thru
Coz of my own mistakes
But when something like this happens
For beautiful things a way it paves

Only if they know
They would be jealous of me
That I have realised
Pain can also make you happy

Some are angry with what I'm going thru
Coz I am too stubborn
The insides of me they cannot see
It's only you who can confirm

Only if they know
They would be jealous of me
The changes it has brought
Reducing my dependencies

My arrogant impatient self
An emotional fool I've been
You taught me things that can only be felt
When everything else looses its sheen

Only if they know
They would be jealous of me
The reality is, an everlasting happiness
No one can guarantee

I cannot say I'm happy without you
Cannot discount your contribution
You've made me someone better
Freeing me from worldly delusions

Only if they know
They would be jealous of me
I am ready to be your captive
Once again, to be this free..

I am talking about you!

Yes, You!
I am talking about you!
I know you sit across
Reading and wondering
Having no clue
So, I am telling you,
All this is for you!

When we were together
and when we separated
Even then I knew
It will always be you

Your love may be far away
Away from the reach of me
but I am ready to stand in the queue
Yes, I am talking about you!

Things have been tough
Things may be seem impossible
but I know we will sail through
Yes, I am talking about you!

You, I would always pursue
Wait for your call for a rendezvous
Coz you! I'd always value
Yes, I am talking about you!

Saturday 13 December 2014

The new-The old

Is it my obsession
Or I truly believe in it
Do I believe in transgression
Or a short lived wit

The old way of life
Not having everything a blink away
Of having simplicity of limited resources
Of living life in a different way

I find myself addicted to the new ones
And still long and pray for the old
A satisfied person, a revolutionary
Learning from the past and the visionary
Is it my obsession
Or I truly believe in it
Do I believe in transgression
Or a short lived wit?

Friday 12 December 2014

The falsehood of everything

Maa, why does dad work so hard
Why does the day never ends
And early it starts
For us, for our happiness my child she says
I think about what she said
For happiness aren't there other ways?

We have everything we need
The house, the clothes and three meals
Isn't everything beyond it, just greed?

I see people running around
For more and for better
I never wanted more
And who defined what's better?

I like our two room set
I don't want big apartment
This Bajaj is comfortable
I don't want an i-ten

The time will go and never return
Let's go out together, get some sunburn
This ac this fridge won't make a family
The falsehood of everything, is not a fallacy!

Nothingness

Maa o maa
All these things around me
Aren't they for real?
Aren't they for us?

I see the moon in the sky
Doesn't it look like the roti you made
I see the cow eating leaves on the trees
Can't we eat them, in abundance they seem

Then there are these things we call drains
Full of water from somewhere, may be rain?
It has changed it's color to black
I've tasted it, doesn't taste so bad

Maa, I know we have nothing to eat
But this world offers everything we need
Why you worry maa, I'll never complain
Let's pray together, they never go to vain!

Thursday 11 December 2014

By my side!

The moment I realised the possibility
My brain stopped working rationally
I dream about our dreams together
My hand in yours in changing weather

The moment I gained the hope
My emotions aren't in control, they elope
I feel what it feels to be next to you
And my eyes see the most beautiful view

The moment I realised the plot
I appreciate what I've got
The chance to evolve thru a roller coaster ride
And still at the end, have you by my side!!

Thank you

Thank you for giving her to me
Thank you for giving them to me
I should never complain
I should understand my gains

ALways be at my side
Always there to support
You would always make it better
What I would distort

Even when you are not around
I know you can always be reached
I wouldn't even know
How big a relief that is

Wednesday 10 December 2014

Value

I covered the shortest paths
With longest roads
I was making it heavier
While you tried to unload

The roads changed
and the havens blurred
I walked with pride
Leaving those voices unheard

The blood grew thinner
Flowing in my veins
The respect, the equanimity
I just did not deign

I reached the haven
and found it incomplete without you
It's a lesson learnt too late
About the things we should VALUE!

Tuesday 9 December 2014

My Criteria!

You fulfill all my criteria
You are everything I ever asked for
You get the perfect score
I couldn't have asked for more

You have that perfect height
Because of your thoughts so high
Your personality shining so bright
Speaks loudly, even though you remain quite

You have that beautiful face
Shining with the love that you give me
I fell in love with who you are
I know you are my sun and my star

You have the best education
Our schools cannot impart that one
The respect, the clarity and equanimity you have
Everyone I know. you outclass

You have the highest salary
With you, I can have anything I need
I know we should be in privity
Coz best things in life come for free!

Thursday 4 December 2014

The One!

One who writes or atleast appreciates different kinds of literature. One who earns to live a good life and doesn't have the lust for more. One who can be happy with who he is and what he has. One who doesn't take his life's decisions based on "what society will think", as long as he's not hurting the ones who matter. Who doesn't evaluate everyday based on how he was talked to. Who has happiness inside of him. Who he likes to work but doesn't have to satisfy his ego by working endlessly. One who doesn't mind taking vacations and appreciates the beauty of nature. One who is not afraid to sing his heart out. Who can dance enjoying the rain. One for whom happiness and beauty have no religion, race or language. One who understands that life is not what is happening at this moment and at the same understands that it is. One who knows how to be happy and spread that happiness :)

Monday 1 December 2014

Better than reality

On the trees of the forest
Weather wasn't at it's best
I saw the birds and the skies
Trees were competing to reach new highs

I ran across, sweating bad
Looking for something I think I had
I stepped on something and it hit me hard
It probably was something that he gaurds

I looked around fully confused
Inside this jungle alone, I mused
I sat there beside the tree
If it's a dream, it's better than reality!

Is it Bad?

I had accepted the fact
That you aren't coming back
Well, that's what I thought
I had it and let it rot

I heard your name today
Amongst other things she had to say
She told she mentioned me to you
Asking you what's it you knew

I wonder what you thought
While you didn't provide
What she sought
Did you start to think about me again
Has it brought you any kinda pain

Hearing your name made me nostalgic
I was fine and it made me sick
I wasn't happy but now I'm sad
I wish to forget you, is that bad?

Thursday 27 November 2014

Test myself

My grief for you
Isn't sad
You won't believe that
But it's true

I've changed and living life
Won't have done that if I were your wife
You won't have stopped me
But life's lessons don't come easy

I'm different in many ways
I learnt because I paid
I've to test myself again in harsh waters
Am I a better human being or a better daughter!

Giver or taker?

You standing there
Looking at me
Laughing
Laughing out loud

My hands full of love
I washed them in the river
Forgot it will wash away
Take the last light from the ray

I ran and I swam
But what flowed with river
Is never coming back
It's long gone and mingled with the river
She, who's a taker and a giver!

Wednesday 26 November 2014

Thoughts

Sitting alone
And looking out of the window
While the bus moves forward
And the roads slips like a carpet
Wind touches like velvel
my skin
And the trees cross
Move backwards
And the thoughts are far away
Beyond the scenery
And the world
In that single moment
When thousand thoughts are there
And they stare back and glare!

Artificial?

IWho am I
Am I what I think I am
Or what others think

Am I defined by my actions
Or my thoughts
Or both
Am I defined by my misery or pain
Or my happiness and gains

Am I what I pretend to be
Or when I'm not pretending
Am I what when I abide the rules
Or is it when I am free

Am I too complex or too simple
Can I be defined in a word or two
Do I go deep or just superficial
Am I pure gold or just artificial..!

Definite or indefinite


The color of moon
The blood of heart
The falls in the mud
The faith falling apart

The righteousness of human
The shadow of the light
The blasphemy deliberated
And all the blackness in white

The temparary nature of permanent
The rebel in me is obedient
The pain in the happiness
Everything indefinite is definite!

Tuesday 25 November 2014

My love for you!

You are part of my existence
I don't miss you anymore
You are not different from me
You are part of my core

Coz you are assimilated in me
I look at myself and ask who is she?
Being this new, I am only glee
Captured by you, I am only free

The look of me, no one will recognise
I just look the same, only wise
My blood, my skin everything is you
The more I fell in love, the more I grew!

Monday 24 November 2014

With or without you?

I am running
To get something I don't have
and to have you, back!
And measure those long tracks

I wonder if this is what I want
Or is it just to fulfill a dream long lost
Is this what is gonna rejuvenate me
or is the fire already exhaust!

Can your name be replaced
Or can your origin
Am I running too fast
Or just being chastened

It all looks same
Or even better at times
Is it a down-way slope
or an up-way climb?

Thursday 20 November 2014

My heart!

The candid look on your face
The words and the silence
The things you said
With such beautiful cadence

The coming to me and going away
The smile that my words bring to your lips
The concentration with which you listen to me
and replies of those lovely quips

Looking at you when you slept
The peaceful way in which you dreamt
In my heart, the way you stepped
Everything you do, my heart you swept!

Enjoy the life more

Differentiate between words and the feelings
Differentiate between what's gone and what's coming
Differentiate between love and liking
Differentiate between life-living and not living

Love when you fall in love
Not when you need to
But smile whenever you can
Not when you have to

There is always an end to the beauty
There is always a last door
It's only when one is not afraid of death
He enjoys the life more!

Mountains of Garhwal

The changing shades of trees
Going Golden yellow from green
The sun setting
and the shadow falling on the mountain

The chilly wind
and the fragrance of the pines in the air
The streams crossing the roads
Even the thoughts are too clear

The bumpy ride
and the window seat
Yes, I am in the mountains of Garhwal
All my senses, are in thrall

Too dark and black!

When the beauty of the world is not enough
You knock inside your heart
and there, if you are lucky
You find all the beauty of the world

And then, when the world revolves around you
That changes the perception too
Darkness shows the path away from light
Your judgement is clouded and you lose the sight

Then the sun shines on the other side
It is still bright, nature's rules it abides
Your world misses something - something it lacks
You see, it has become too dark and black!

Thursday 13 November 2014

Yearn!

Angry, too angry!
for everything you say!
Things you haven't said yet
but you are gonna say

I don't wanna understand what you say
'Coz even if you don't know - words hurt
I wanna move away from every such thought
There is nothing in our hearts, only dirt

I don't wanna use ugly words to you
I know where I belong
Putting up with you all this time
I should have accepted it to be wrong

Anger will take me nowhere
I am gonna suffer for nothing in return
Have to make a list of new wants
Away from what I always yearn

Wednesday 12 November 2014

Boy, yes you do!

Boy, yes you do!
You make me wanna write a song for you
Make me wanna blow kisses in your way
Leave everything and just be with you

O Boy! yes you do!
You make me wanna say words I never felt
Make me wanna dance when I hear your voice
Leave everything and in your arms, just melt

O Boy! yes you do!
You make me wanna dream of what's coming
Make me wanna dream about the future
Leave everything and plan from what I've been running

Monday 10 November 2014

Gain or Loss!


The right is opposite of left
Or it can be, of wrong
Is it a poem without music
Or it can become a song

Do we get stillness of the sea
Or we get washed away by river waters
Is it living life to the fullest
Or it's just a quarter

Do we cry because of no clue
Or because of what we know
Is our boat sailing on our terms
Or waiting for someone else to row

Is that path too lonely
Or is it too tough to cross
I walk on it to see the light
Without worrying about the gain or the loss!

Saturday 8 November 2014

Loose or win?

The beauty of love
And not finding your God
When I smile at Him
And He too nods

Of being able to do His kirtan
Of being able to praise His name
And then if you find Him
Does it dampen the flame?

The happiness of Him being there
Of you knowing about Him
Having Him with you or you being with him
Who can tell, when you loose or when do you win?

Due

You were an atheist
And you made me religious
You have made it plain and simple
When everything was so tedious

I believe
And I have faith
Something I can hold on to
When everything else fades

I know the love
What it really is
Even when you aren't there
It can never cease

I pray
I worship
When I think of you
As if life has given me
Everything that was due!

Sunday 2 November 2014

Why!


We were separated
but that didn't change my love
Sometimes we don't know what we want
and We want clarity

We know the value of things
when it leaves us
and May be I needed time
To understand, to figure it out
and to love you even more than what I have ever had

I guess it's even better
I can never regret my decisions now
The alone time made me clearer
Shining in your love ever

Doesn't it show my love is eternal
and it is here to stay?
Why do I have to prove myself?
That I have always loved you!

Downslide

What can I do
What can I say
I am too ugly
For the claim I lay

I let you go
When I could have anyone
But now I know my heart
It's pretty much done

Now I got outside
What I'm inside
And I know I am on a ride
Which only has downslide!

Saturday 1 November 2014

Lyrical

Sometimes you know
That you have lost somebody forever
You know you're been stupid
When you were trying to be clever

Sometimes you know
Whatever you do
They aren't coming back
But you still wait for that
Coz emotions aren't just white and black

Sometimes you know
This person can't be woo'ed
Even when you try to charming
You come out as pushy and rude

Sometimes you know
You can just pray for a miracle
Coz I know when we get back
It's gonna be just lyrical

Thursday 30 October 2014

Life

The life comes to a standstill
And then comes the turmoil
Everything is opposite of what you imagined
Yet it seems that it was always meant to be

Everything seems so complex
Yet is so simple it seems
Picking up my cycle I reach the sea
And realize how the small part of larger plan are we

All starts at the sea and ends there
Or rather there is no beginning no end
The water takes numerous forms
and survives all stages it passes through

So are we humans taking different forms at different stages of life
Battling all the time to stay alive
So my life comes to a standstill
And my soul is at peace!

- Padma Madipalli

Wednesday 29 October 2014

Me and you

I know I hurt you
I know I went away when I shouldn't have
But I tried
To come back to you
I worked towards it

I loved you with all my heart
I have been in love from the start
I know you did too
That's what made me stick like a glue

But now you say you don't
Now you say you can't
How can I understand
I can't
I tried, so much
To forget you
To not make you part of my life
But you already are
I can't change it
Even if I try

You are what you are for me
and always will be
If any part of you still loves me
and believe that we can be
then, please come back to me
because I want me and you to be, we!

I want to know

Being here with me
How did it feel?
Did it kill?
I want to know

When you said you love me
When you wanted to spend you life with me
Did you really mean it?
I want to know

When you went away
When you started living without me
Was it too easy?
I want  to know

Was I something that comes and goes?
and your emotions easily froze
What did you do to move on?
I want to know

Monday 27 October 2014

Let's....

Let's fight
Let's blame each other
Let's wet our eyes
In that love again

Let's be each other enemy
Lets be each other biggest fan
Let's be each other confidante
Let's be each others friend

Let's say those words
Lets make each other happy
Let's make each other sad
Let's hurt each other again

Let's play that role
Let's be part of each other's soul
Let's fall in love 
Let's be us again

Fragments

I wish I could go back
To those times when we were together
and rewrite our story
To be just perfect

Those times when we laughed together
and I cried resting my head on your shoulder
When we walked on the streets hand in hand
and I sang on your guitar as if we are a band

Those times when you cooked for me
To see you smile made me glee
When you gave me that silver chain
When we kissed each other standing in the rain

I wish I could go back
To relive each of those moments
To live them as a whole
or even in fragments!

You

The silence is loud
My mind is in a cloud
The feelings under a drought
Waiting for the rain of your love

The sounds are deafening
I hear my thoughts screaming
Your name
Telling me those memories 
Repeating those words you said

My vision's playing game
Drawing something in a frame
I know it's your face
Shining with His grace

The wind blowing here
Carries you fragrance
and it makes me nostalgic
Waiting for your presence with patience!

Sunday 26 October 2014

Easy - Difficult

It's easy to claim, you love somebody
Easy to demand their love in return
But difficult to love someone truly
Difficult to let your heart burn

It's easy to blame someone for your misery
Easy to demand the release
Difficult to accept the reality
Difficult to let your emotions freeze

It's easy to want somebody
Easy to demand captivity
Difficult to let them go
And still love after making them free!

भूलना

वो कहते हैं भूल जाऊँ तुम्हे
कहते हैं की तुम सिर्फ आदत हों
सिर्फ मेरी दिन चर्या का हिस्सा थे
तो क्यूं ना भूल जाऊँ तुम्हे

पर कैसे समझाऊं कि तुम क्या हों
तुम मेरी आदत नहीँ मेर जीवन हों
दिनचर्या नहीँ मेर नज़रिया हों
ये बेह्ती हवा जैस तेरा ही संदेश है
ये पेड़ों के पत्ते जैसे तेरे गीत गाते हों

जैसे मेरी सोच मेरी नहीँ तेरी हों
वो हर सवाल जिसका जवाब कल ना था
आज तू दे रहा है
मेरे अस्तित्व और जीवन की ऎ परिभाषा
कैसे बताऊँ इन्हें की नहीँ भूल सकती तुम्हे

Friday 17 October 2014

My Demons

Its not you
Not your love
Not your memories
Not your words

It's my demons
Inside my heart
Inside my brain
Inside my thoughts

That's where they hide
That's where they trouble me
Make me miserable
Telling me what I fear
Taking away what I hold dear

You are long gone
Too far to do something to me
It's me
Myself against me!

Full


You changed my days and nights
You came to my life
as a shining armored knight
You made me look at the world
beyond my horizons
You clicked something
and you changed the world
and gave me wings
I don't need no red bull
I don't need no push
You have become my constant pull
Making my heart and life full!

Who is She

Saw her sitting on the bench on the sand
The waves came and went away
but they couldn't touch her 
She sat there 
Digging her feet in the sand

She was holding a book in her hand
which was my all time favorite
her brown hair covered her face,
as the wind blew
as the sea breeze came
and touched her face

She was lost in her thoughts
She looked somewhere
Looking beyond the sun
Beyond the horizons
She, I guess is me!

Chance - No Chance!

Whatever I say to you
To convince you
To ask you to come back to me
I know it isn't working

I ask you
But I get no answer
I look inside my own heart
No answers, Just million thoughts

I try to blame myself 
For pushing you away
But even that doesn't change
My love for you

And now I 
I know you learnt something
And now I 
I know you wouldn't wanna fall in love with me
Even if given a chance

Tuesday 14 October 2014

Hate you?

Love and hatred
Sides of the same coin
Can I ever hate you
With the same intensity
With which I loved?

For you have given me no reason to
Still I find myself longing
For hatred to replace the love
To feel free for that constant
Longing for you

Will it help?
Can hatred help me to get over you?
Coz even if I hate you
You'll still be part of my day and night
Still be the topic of my words and my sight

आशा

आशाओ से परे वो आसमाँ होगा
जहा सपनो का संसार होगा
जहा दोपहर के बाद शाम का समाँ होगा
जहा अपना ईमान अपना खुदा होगा

जब धरती के आँचल से कोपले फूटेंगी
जब नादिया समंदर से अपना रिश्ता गूँथेगी
जब सच्चाई और ईमानदारी पे संसार चले
जब हर चीज़ का आधार प्यार बने

जहाँ किसान और व्यापारी में कोई फ़र्क ना हो
जहाँ अधर्मियो का बोल बाला ना हो
ऐसे ही संसार की आशा रखते हैं हम
हटे सब अहंकार और सारे गम

Courage

When you say you weren't here
I don't believe you
How can I?
You have never given me a reason

You have lied
I never asked you
Have always shied
You played those games with me
In which you were already expert
and I had no reason to see
beyond what I saw

My mind was under your spell
Won't dare to utter a word
Even if I was going through hell
I knew I wouldn't be heard

But what I had forgotten
I had stopped listening to myself
It wasn't who needed to know
It was me
Whom I needed to show

It takes courage
To break through those shackles
You put yourself into
and now I know I am strong enough
To sail my boat
Even when the waters are rough!

Silence

Silence can have different meanings
Sometimes I enjoy it
Sometimes I embrace it
Coz I feel ruined

Silence is part of me
It surfaces in different moods
Sometimes happy, sometimes sad,
Sometimes it can too be crude

The thoughtful process
I engross myself into
Makes me long for silence
and be part of something
which was long due!

Beyond Time!

The place has something to do with me
It makes me sad and nostalgic
I might have belonged there
When I see it, something ticks

The names sound familiar
The roads feel my own
I feel a different energy
As if to me, it was always known

I know I have a connection
I know it was mine
Experiences might differ in every birth
but what I feel is beyond time

Monday 13 October 2014

Insipid

I am easily cheated
I generally give up
I gave you what what I should
but I never could

I try to find answers
To why it didn't
I feel the sadness and the anger
Just needed a hint

We always fought
I may have been timid
I reason I know now was,
That our love was, insipid

Sunday 12 October 2014

The gossip lovers

People are looking for cheap gossip. Something that satisfies their tongues. They may pretend to be your friend but all they are looking for is juicy stuff. Sometimes you also believe in them, their stories only to later realise you've been a fool. They hardly care and then they also blame you for not being open to them. They may not use it against you but it's something they need to satify in their brain some part of brain left or right who knows?
Unless you answer they keep pushing and digging to get some dirt in their hands that they can use to build palaces of words. These palaces are also temporary for none is interested in others pain and misery for long. These words are ice bricks and such palaces melt every time they are shared with one more person. Even they loose to desire to share it anymore and then they hunt for other misery or pain!

Thousand miles

A thousand miles away
When a mother sings for his son
I hear them
Crying, making for the run

A thousand miles away
When I hear a bird shrieking
I hear in it's voice
Pain and longing

A thousand miles away
When you sing
I hear the bells of
Memories it rings

His name!

What's in the name
You ask me his name
You ask me
Who has lit that flame

How can I show you his heart
How can I explain why we can't be apart
How can I tell you what he did
How can I show how my heart just slid

You ask me his name
His name gives nothing of his personality
His name isn't his only identity
Saying it, would only make me nervous
For you, it won't serve any purpose

What's in the name,
Ask me, after meeting him
What I became!

Saturday 11 October 2014

Countless dressings!

The life and death
The dreams we take to our beds
The life so miraculous
The feelings so sumptuous

The aftermath of love
The end of a celebration
The tinge of joyousness it leaves
And what one's soul achieves

Light the sun brings
The treasure sea keeps
The messages wind comes with
Life the soil creates

Small happiness of life
Our blessings
One soul in every birth
And its countless dressings!

Friday 10 October 2014

Play called life

Someone once said
We are all playing our roles
On this stage called world
Created by Him

But I say
We act all the time
Knowingly or unknowingly

When a wife sends his husband to border
She acts to be strong and happy
When a girl leaves her father's house after wedding
He pretends, even though its tears his heart is shedding

When I cross my ex lover happy in his life
When I see parents of a child who hasn't survived
When I see the false anger wife shows to her husband
When I see an actor nominated waiting at sone award function grand
We are all acting in this play called life..

Me, with myself!

Sometimes I am so lonely
I ask myself to accompany me
For I have forgotten how it is
and I forget I am already, Me

Sometimes I am so lost
I don't know who is who
Then I ask myself to join me
For a drink or two

Sometimes I am so confused
I can't relate to myself
I feel different from this mind I have
and I realise its time some memories I shelve

Sometimes I feel so deluded
I see me, different from myself
it's then, I feel not so secluded
and in my own mind I delve!

Wednesday 8 October 2014

स्वार्थ और निःस्वार्थ

विश्वास खुद पर
उमीदों पर
जब टूटने लगता है
जब उस ऐलान के बाद भी
सब खोखला लगता है

जब अपनी उमीदें
खुद से डगमगाने लगें
जब वहाँ पहुँच के
क़दम वापस उठने लगें

जब स्वयं दोषारोपण का शिकार ढूँढ़ने लगें
जब पीड़ा में भी एक आनँद आने लगें
उस दिन मेरे मित्र
तुम आना मेरे पास
तब समझोगे मेरी भावनाओ का
स्वार्थ और निःस्वार्थ

A beautiful tryst!

It's something I want
I crave for
I know it's not needed
Something I can become slave of

It may be temporary
For wants always change
It may be normal
I know it's not strange

Habits have their own calling
Sometimes with them, I keep brawling
but I know I have to resist
Else it will always be a beautiful tryst!

Intense

It goes without saying
How you feel
When you pushed to that level
where your mind just cannot work anymore
or probably it becomes more intense
more involved
more tired
more in pain
more brightened
more enlightened
It takes you to the level
where you are no more pushed by someone else
but your own self
and that's what you want to do
to reach!

Tuesday 7 October 2014

इज़हार

क्या खूबसूरत  जज्बात हैं
जब आने वाले कल की
कोई ख़बर नहीँ
जब ये ना समझ आये
कि तेरा दीदार ज्यादा ख़ूबसूरत है
या  तेरे आने का इन्तेज़ार
जब तेरे सपने ज़्यादा ख़ूबसूरत हैं
या उनका होना साकार
जब ये समझ ना आये
कि तुझे चाहना ज्यादा ख़ूबसूरत है
या तेरा इज़हार

This Jungle we call society!

Who are we
We have our self created world
Self created egos
We do not know what we are
Until we are left alone in this cruel jungle
This jungle we call society
Which has its own rules
with no meanings
And then it kicks
where it hurts bad
We pacify ourselves
hiding behind our egos
We don't surrender
We don't change
We are not flexible
and then we try to find
A way back
Way back into the world
Where we can still satisfy ourselves
Some put efforts in right direction
and they get it
Rest.. Alas!
are still part of the jungle!
None is happy
None is content
Everyone is full of
despair and contempt!

Answers, anyone?

It's sad people are killed like that. Really sad. Anyone can come, fire bullets and ruin our home, bloodstain our sheets and kill us. and what wrong did they do?
The killings at border is nothing new but on the auspicious day of Eid, when everyone was busy celebrating some people had other plans in mind. To kill. To derive pleasure out of it. Sadist.
Indian soldiers also killed people on the other side but what good does it do? How long things are going to be like this and we are just going to react to it?
When will this stop, I ask myself and other people. I ask those who should be better equipped to answer this question but no one has the answer.
All over the world, people are killed in the name of religion, land and righteousness. People get killed and everything continues as before. No one cares about anyone who died. Oh just 10 people! 20 people! I know this too. Maybe we all are hypocrites 'coz it hurt more when people in my land got killed.
If somebody has answers, please tell me. Where are we going? Are we going to clear the human race from the Earth, killing each other? Are we ever going to be free of terrorism? Will be ever have peace? Will there be a day when people won't fear for their lives? When staying in different parts of the world wouldn't change your chances of living some decent years at our own conditions?
Answers, anyone?

Exile

Exile may not be the death
It can be something afresh
Something that you never knew
Something that was long due

It may bring new avenues
And was just a reason
because of which you grew
It may look like a treason
but may bring even better seasons

Exile may bring happiness
It may bring independence
You may learn to live on your own
Change you completely from flesh to bone!

Start of something new

The excitement it brings
To my heart it clings
The way you make it beat
When our eyes meet

When it reaches the road
When we walked and strode
It ends at my humble abode
The feelings it brings to explode

Is it an old story told anew
or start of something fresh and new
Is is when writing meets the presentation
Is it my reparation and my redemption?