Remand

You knew me and my love
From the start
Still you chose to believe someone else
Never thought twice to part

Today you blame me
For being to cold
I blame you
For letting me go

You think I didn't wait for you
How can you think
I would have trusted you
You left me alone
In those whirlpools
And still believed me
Using my own fuel

I almost died waiting for you
While you followed someone else's command
I was only a victim
Who wasn't even freed on remand...

I wanted to be...

Coz I wanted to be loved
For more than I deserved
And I was like anyone else
Eat more than I was served

Coz I wanted not to be hated
On mistakes than I had made
For every word that was misunderstood
For every sentence that was laid

Coz I wanted not be judged
On every decision that I had taken
For I wanted to be loved for
Everything that was forsaken!

इक समय की बात है

इक समय की बात है
जैसे तू मेरे साथ था
और चुप रह के भी
करता कोई बात था

जैसे आँखें पढ़ लेती थी
दिल के अरमान सभी
तुझे देखकर पलकें उठातीं
तो झुकाती थीं कभी

तेरे जाने के बाद
जैसे समां थम सा गया
तू गया तो अपने साथ
मेरे सपनों के ले गया

गया तू वहां
जहाँ से लौट ना सके
जैसे वो फल ही तोड़ लिया हो
इससे पहले को वो पके

राज़

जैसे आज मन थम ही नहीं रहा
जाना चाहता है उन गलियों में
उन किताबों के पन्ने पलट रहा है
जब खुशबू है उन सूखी कलियों में

जैसे चल रहा हो उन राहो में
जहाँ का रास्ता वो भूल चुका है
जैसे वक़्त फिर चल पड़ेगा
जहाँ वो कबसे रुका है

उन सूखे दरख्तो को
आस से देखता हूँ मैं आज
जानें कब उनमें फूल खिल उठें
जानें कब ख़ोल दें वो इक नया राज़

You as you do

You can do anything
To be a man
And I am trying everything
Everything that I can

I have loved you
With all my heart
Noone can ever replace you
They can't even reach as close as a yard

You're being something
Becoming something in the world
While I brood here
Ruining my name in the dirt

You choose to be yourself
Keeping all my souvenirs
And drink in those same glasses
Loudly saying 'Cheers'!

You're happy in the world
You created for yourself
And left me behind
In those memories I delve!

Cloud of dust

The sights of the togetherness
And the views seen together
When I see outside the window
All my thoughts begin to gather

The beauty of the rain
The little droplets on the window pane
With wind blowing against them
How they make a chain

With you, everything seem so perfect
You make everything I asked for, as must
But when I try to get hold of you
You disappear like a cloud of dust

Excuse

The way you made me feel
The way I couldn't reciprocate
And I know when I showed my feelings
It already was too late

The way I felt for you
The way you never felt the same
When you say sorry for not loving me enough
Honestly, it sounds too lame

The way I fell too deep
And you suddenly became cold
And all the excuses you gave me
For lifetime I'm not gonna hold..

My last letter to you

My last letter to you
I wrote on some dark night
I knew it wasn't going anywhere
I knew you aren't my knight

My last letter to you
Took all my strength to compose
And while I typed each word
I cried from eyes to nose

My last letter to you
Still makes me wonder if you read
And what went on in your mind reading it
And whether your emotions went from cold to dead!

Door

I like to believe the words
That we said to each other
I like to think it floats in my heart
As light as a feather

I like to believe the love was there
That you felt for me
That it wasn't shallow as others say
It was way too deep

I like to believe we had it all
Everything that one asks for
And the exit was so abrupt
I couldn't see the door!

Colored

The reference of things
Remind me of you
The name of few things
Remind me of you

The way we sat together
In the sand holding hands
The way the light disappeared
Where the sky meets the land

The memory is so strong
Everything else seems so blurred
And when I draw you with the paintbrush
All my memories become coloured..

You say...

You say I never hurt you

But I know I do

I know I have the power

To do what I do

You say it doesn’t matter

But I know it does

The things become tough

When you’re not just I, but us

You say you forget

But I don’t know if that’s true

We argue, we hurt, we brood

Maybe ‘coz we have different views

The daily soaps and women empowerment

Many years back a revolution came in the television industry when Ekta Kapoor started with daily soaps different from what were already shown on television. The serials like Kyunki Saas bhi kabhi bahu thi and Kahani ghar ghar ki were accepted with open arms and everyone was happy to watch them. The big old Indian families, family problems, the household problems and gossip everything was enjoyed (even if it was exaggerated). But then started the never ending stories, going nowhere. and similar shows followed.
It is almost 15 years that the trend started but it seems its never ending. Such shows started with the idea to make soaps more women oriented, to show that women are capable of change inside as well as outside the houses. Yesterday I happened to watched few shows on television and they are not by the same producer/director. I realised the stories are almost same. I realised what was considered women empowerment 15 years ago is not the same anymore.
The shows in early 2000s showing women given their rightful position and being able to participate in household decisions were considered as good things. As shows were watched and followed women subconsciously decided to get similar treatments and men learnt the benefit of such behavior. but 15 years on, has our world not changed? Do writers have no other stories? Have we not grown? Has our industry not relaised the fact?
If we look at Indian cinema there is considerable difference in the kind of movies that are made. From early 2000s to now, there are multitude of themes on which movies are made different from popular regular ones. Some of them do well, some don't but producers and directors are ready to try in cinemas then why not television? Except 2-3 shows which might be on a move social views most of the soaps still deal with beauty, love, marriage, family politics, saas- bahu issues, issues of widows etc.
The most popular argument given is that this is what society demands. I am not expecting the society to change overnight but as audience we have a right to get more choices in shows that the presented before us. Unless such shows were telecasted no-one knew the market is available and now we need to revolutionize the industry again.
And stop attaching the idea of such serials with women empowerment. Such more than family politics, heavily dressed women and crying over petty issues is not going to empower women and no, we don't enjoy it. None of today's women do. Try and innovate.

Display

Thousand times I have thought

Why I have come to this?

Thousand times I have brooded

Why it has lead to this?

Thousand questions I have asked myself

And not find any answers

Thousand feelings that I tried to control

Have started to flood with tidal surge

Thousand dreams I have

To be shattered everyday

Thousand emotions inside of me

But nothing at all to display!

Miscommunication

When I remain the way I am

When I try to close myself from everything

You blame me for being too cold

You blame for not being into it

When I fight me ego

When I try to be with you

When I am ready to show my love

You run away from me

You close the doors

I cannot reach

And then there are still some limits

I cannot breach

I want to start afresh everyday

Carry love forward and subtract all the ill feelings

But one of us find a way to shun

We are caught in the whirlpools

Of egos, opinions and miscommunication!

Churning

The words that I say

The way I react

Is it me who is doing that?

Or is it someone else?

The way I lose my patience

The way I want to run away

The way I lose trust

The way I believe nothing is gonna last

Is it me who is doing that?

Or is it someone else?

The way I believe I have learnt enough

The way things always bring something or the other

We need to learn and keep learning

It never ends, keep on churning!

Dreams

Dreams are just not a word
They take you to other world
You start thinking of possibilities
Considering your own flexibilities

Dreams do make you happy
When they show you what you want to see
You fly in skies above
This whole world seems to fall in love

And then dreams don't let you sleep
Whether you are happy or in thoughts deep
Those endless thoughts can take you somewhere
Where you're either can be launched or ready for a breakdown!