In my prayers

I know I let you go
You were there to love me
and be there for me
but I couldn't and things didn't happen
So why, why it feels so bad
To see you with someone else

I met you in the market
and she was there
You offered to talk
but I had nothing to share

I could see the happiness in her eyes
and it made me jealous
How can it be you and her
It should be us

Its time I let you go
Now you are hers
and not to be shared
I cannot have you in my heart
but you are and always will be
...In my prayers

Gone!

I am not who I am without you
You had become a piece of me
and now that piece is missing
You memories are there but they do not suffice

I am doing the things I didn't want to
I am creating the storms for myself
and standing against it
I am facing it, feeling it
and enjoying the pain

The fire in my heart
and emptiness of eyes
and I am trying to move on
but something is not right

Stay here and be a part of me
Make it possible and let me see
Things are and will be different from now on,
I know, for better, you are gone!

Love

I ask you what is love?

Has anyone understood it?

Is it just a habit developed over years?

Or is it as people say a bond for life?

Is it the understanding between the two that cannot be mistaken

Or is it just attraction or infatuation?

Then why do some fall in love with their best friend

or others call a stranger their soulmate

Is it the words that are spoken

or is the beauty lying in the eyes of beholder

Is it the unspoken words and smiles exchanged

Or love is something eternal

Can't be defined or seen

it can only be felt 

and can only be prayed for.. Hoped for!

To be with you

You promised me the innocence of pink
and the ​liveliness of green

The Brightness of yellow in your aura
pulled me towards you

I feel all purple with the love that you have given me
We are connected with the auspiciousness of red now
The love that you have showered
All shades of golden you suffused

But things are not the same

Now you are not here
And I'm blue
My world is all black
I see the white light
And I'm coming to you
To be one with you

Long Gone

I look at you from the window
Leaving me alone here
I wish to see that love in your eyes
Long gone, long hoped for

I remember those days by the seashore
Where we'd submerge our emotions
Moving with the sound of waves
I wish to see that love in your eyes
Long gone, long hoped for

Lying on the wet bed of sand
Our drawing on the sand getting washed away
Finding shells and choosing our favorites
Making plans for tomorrow
I wish to see that love in your eyes
Long gone, long hoped for

Now we are here, together
What we always hoped for
Is finally ours
Is this what we were looking for
Coz I can't see that love anymore
Is it gone? Was it worth hoping for?

Hope

Promises were made
And decisions were taken
I based on decisions on your promises
And I come to you

I asked for love and I asked for happiness
Was it too much to as for
Everyone is here with me
But without you, I'm caught by loneliness

The things that you give me
Can not replace you
Apologies were made profusely
But what I need is us

Decisions are wrong and
Promises are broken
Hearts aren't untouched
and Eyes are swollen
Chances are asked for
And will be given .
Coz its hope, just hope I'm living on!

Journey of Life

Spend one year together
Seems like only yesterday
Finding you in the office
And finding our way from B to C block with you

Days passed and assignments came
It was hot summer and then it rained
I fell sick and you went home
I have some memories but some are blur
But it wasn't a full year we spent together

Sitting with kannan
And listening to the gyan
The wrong way of work we do
And lectures of Sadhguru
We faced it all together

Singing songs in our room
Sharing songs and asking for comments soon
Clicking pictures in the park with winter sun
Feeling sleepy, our day was done

The trip to JLF and your driving
Felt that almost all the time you were racing
The light and sound show at amer
And the signed copy of Lowland

I'm bad at goodbyes  I say here now
I'm glad that destiny crossed our paths
The discussions on religion, the Nagas and yes not to forget football
I learnt alot from you
A new perspective, world in small size..
This is what we call journey of life!

Test of Life

Love is just impossible to understand
When I thought I am madly in love
I wasn't and
When I thought this ain't gonna work
It shook me till the end of myself

Is love difficult to understand
Or its just we have so many layers on our mind
We think love and we want to be rational at the same time
We are rational and still we miss love

Sometimes we are lucky to find love with rationality
But will it be there
Will it remain steady
Or is it just a test
To feel good and bad
To be happy and sad
To be happy high and broken hearted
Is this the test of life!

Life without you

Life without you is lonely
Life without you has no meaning
Life is just tasteless
I can't smell anything sweet too

There's darkness all around me
And wherever I look, I can't see you
Is the darkness in my heart
Or is it the surrounding too

I wish you were here
I wish life was good
Coz it can only be
If I wasn't just with me
And you were here too