When I think of you

When I think about you
I think of the rains
Think of the grasses in the park
And trees surrounding

When I think of you
I think of wind
I think of cold and warm
I think of sunlight in winters

When I think of you
I think of breath
I think of life
In every human bejng, animal or plants

When I think of you
I think of monuments
Of those who made it
And stories behind it

When I think of you
I think of words unsaid
Stories untold
Of promises made
Of love and devotion!!

Just Happy!

There was a time
I was simple and ignorant
I didn't know the world
I didn't know the world and its complexities

Then I changed
The process was gradual
and I didn't realise
Where the simple, naive 'me' got lost
In the world full of lies

I sure am happy
I know what makes me
and I do things what I like
but am I content?
What changed?
What changed me from happy and content
to just happy!

Unanswered Questions

Why are we not taught the value of love.. the purity of love.. why is love important.. how it supersedes everything in life.. why are we taught to be practical.. why are we told love is not enough.. not sufficient.. 

Then why are we told that love for God is everything. A love without expectation, without having the proof of it.. without showing that your deity is there.. He exists...

and How do we separate love with affection or with habit or with just a child's stubbornness.. 

When did life become so complicated that we could not even understand our own emotions.. cannot know what we feel.. cannot decide on our actions based on our emotions because we don't know our emotions anyway..

I don't know what is love.. I understand that at times it's not a necessary condition for life.. Is stubbornness is? If someone has decided on something, will it work?

Does love guarantee happiness? No.. Does Money? No.. Does Compromise? No.. Then why do we choose between things and mark the best possible option? So should we leave everything? Or should we take one thing and be stubborn to work on it, to make it our reason for happiness?

I have no answers.. Do you?

My apprehensions

Does that love exist
Is its somewhere around
Do I know that
Can it be found

To love unconditionally
without any expectations
and live for you all my life
In those happy moments given to me

I am not aware of that
I don't know about it
How content I would have felt
Only if I had
Only if I could

My love for you may not be real
It could mean nothing
Coz if it were, I know how should I have felt
What devotion can do to you
Happy and satisfied with love, Just love!

Pleasure of reading

There are somethings in life that cannot be priced. When you read something beautiful that takes you to another world and so much happiness one derives out of it that you can renounce all the worldly pleasures just to feel that. Just to be that happy, that content for the rest of your life. The world that it takes you to, is not available otherwise and is accessible to only those who can read it, enjoy it and understand it. You just want to submerge yourself in those waters. You can't really explain what is more beautiful. The while reading effect or the after reading. Sometimes the happiness gets reflected in your eyes and you wonder what a beautiful writing can do to you and to your heart.
Happy to be one of them.

With you

How much I have wanted you
Wanted you to come to me
Wanted you to give me that red saree
Wanted to sing those happy songs with you

I hear those pandits singing something for me
I hear the voice of river calling me
To submerge myself in it
To reach out to you

I am on the wait that's never ending
I lay beside the ghat chanting your name
I put the Ganga jal in my mouth
To purify myself, to be worthy
That someday, you will come and take me
With you forever!

Not Lonely without you!

Those few months

You were part of my life

You made me something

You did something to me

Before you came, I didn't know

How to live, how to love

and then you came

and taught me

I was lonely before you came

I have been with people

but I could feel the emptiness inside me

and then you came

and changed everything

Now you are not here

and I am alone

but I am not lonely

I have your memories

Your love

Things that you taught me

Are still with me, in my heart

and I am not lonely without you!

For me

When I met you

When I started being with you

I didn't know

where it will go

but it didn't take much time to realise

how much I love you

How much we are made for each other

And how much I wanted to give my everything to you

And I did, give my everything to you

My heart, my soul, my mind

I placed you there

Never to be taken away from there

Now I see you

Still holding that place

I am happy to see you there

Coz this is where you belong

Coz that's the only place 

You can ever be for me!

Cling on to it

I came to see you
As soon as I laid my eyes on you
I knew I am never gonna see
Anything more beautiful than this

The roads were slippery
and it had rained
I looked at those waterfalls
On the way

On the sides of one river,
I sat and I thought
How can I be at such beautiful
Place like this

There was this waterfall
I had seen in my dream
Crossing it with the bridge
It fulfilled my dream

I looked at him again and again
he said something to me
I did not understand
but I knew it was the language of love
and I promised to meet him again

I jumped from the stones
and I was tired
I was singing songs
with my co-travelers
But looking at all this I felt more excited
Drenched in rain
The weariness subsided

I finished my trek
and sat in the bus
I looked outside the window
and again saw us
It was so amazing
I wanted some wings
and cling on to it

Rains

I am walking on the road
and it has just rained
the roads are cleaner
the trees are greener

I smell the flower of jasmine
sold by the vendor on roadside
Birds singing and chirping
and Eagle sitting with pride

I see children running in the mud
with their folded pants
Old grannies sitting in the balcony
Singing the beautiful chants

I hear my majhi singing
Those songs on rains
The ghats look so majestic
I cannot explain

I feel so happy everytime it rains
Its a feeling I cannot abstain
I feel happy I feel loved
My heart, anymore, cannot be gloved!

When I meet you!

When I meet you
I want to look
the way I am

I want my hair to pull you
and tie you with me
My heart to play the music
that connects us

I want my eyes to say
those things that make me, me
and my heart speak
the language of love

I want my aanchal to flow
like a waterfall
and my heart sings out
to call you, invite you

When I meet you
I want you to know its me
Its who you have been waiting for
Its then, I meet you!

Meditating with open eyes!

Sometimes you forget yourself
You don't know where you are
What you are doing
and where you belong

You look the the hole inside that wall
Just across the room
or the paper fluttering with the wind
blown across the room

The world is moving at its pace
People are running around
Cars are honking
and as usual the scorching heat outside

Many hours have passed
and you don't realise
It is making happy and content
Like meditating with open eyes

One!

I want to be one with you
Be there and Be nothing

Listening to your melody
Takes me into trance
As if I am nothing without you
or maybe I wouldn't have existed
If weren't for you

There is so much of happiness
That I can cry in it
I stop feeling myself
My heart just thinks of you
and dances on your tunes

This is what makes me alive
To feel and to realise
And in this happiness
I cease to exist
I am you, you are me
We are One!

Appreciate!

I touch the panes of my window
Its raining outside
and I can see the droplets
Sitting on the glass

They are so pretty
and they make my window look prettier
The view has blurred for my eyes
and in my heart I can see everything clearer

I sit in my balcony
With tea in my hand
My city washed and cleaned by the rain
looks prettier everytime

There is so much happiness
There is so much of beauty
The most I can do is
Appreciate and appreciate!

A gold band

I held her hand
Its been long and I was scared
Time was flowing like a sand

I waited for her to react
To pull her hand or say something
All I want to do was make her mine and be more than friend

She smiled at me
And I felt on the top of the world
I reached for my pocket
And put something in her hand
My love my life.. a gold band

Syrian Unrest: Any solution for refugees?

Its almost three years that Syria is under civil war. The are killings and bombings everywhere. The locals have no solution but to flee to neighboring country, Lebanon. There are no formal camps. Children are illegally working to pay rent to stay in rented accommodation. The aid which is coming to the country for refugees is not sufficient to feed everyone. Some people have immolated themselves to show protest.

There are so many countries which have been going through Civil War following a political unrest. Change to a better place is definitely a difficult process but in this world, where we have such organisations and institutions to help the refugees, it feels very sad to hear about it.

A lot of aid is going to Lebanon to help the refugees but it won't suffice. How long do we expect the authorities to help people who have left their country, home, jobs, works etc to come and seek refuge in a neighboring country which itself is not self sufficient? The unrest in Syria is not short term and till then refugees cannot keep on working illegally or die at the mercy of UNHCR (The United Nations Refugee Agency) for food and medical facilities. It is important to coordinate with local Lebanon authorities to arrange some work for Refugees where they can earn and live with self respect so that the limited aid can be used judiciously.

The situation is so precarious that it is difficult for anyone to comment. I wish and pray that all those countries who are going through such unrest be able to settle and give its own citizens their right to live. 

The play of life

The name the characters
Part of life
And you and me
Just playing the roles

How good am I playing
Or with it, I am flowing
Am I getting into the character
Or am I loosing myself

The plot is so compelling
Other actors are so good
How can I not loose it
To be there, to be with you

Living in the past

Why am I living in the past
Why can't I accept that it can't be the future
Is it an issue with my heart
That I'm thinking if we were

Do we enjoy living in misery
Do we take pleasure in our pains
I have loved you enough
But how long can I play this game

Do I think about you 'coz I love you
Or 'coz I have nothing else to do
Has it become my habit
Thats why I'm falling in this pit
Or is it the spells that you cast
Why am I living in the past
Why am I living in the past!

Expectations

Our life doesn't start with it
We get all the love, happiness and care
More than we could handle
But as we grow
Things change
We become full of expectations

Expectations from mother and father
Then, alot from the partner
Later from children
Like our parents had from us

They do not get fulfilled
And we feel sad
And we keep on changing them
Increasing them
Asking for more
But never changing ourselves

Ah, the expectations
Makes us happy when fulfilled
Sad when not
They say its the root of all troubles
Still we have them, feed them, keep them
For life...!!

At peace

The first time I met you I knew you are the one,
The first time you touched my hand and I knew I want to hold it forever
Completely in love with you

But the fact remains I cannot have you
You are in love with someone else
Who is long gone and never coming
Still waiting for him
Hoping him to come back

Why can't you see that somebody loves you
Why are you living in the past
I can give you more love than you ever hope for
But you have to look at me first

Love is like a magic
And people are spell bound
I'm under your spell and
You are under someone else's
I hope atleast one of the spell gets broken
And someone finds his love
And atleast someone gets to be.. at peace!

Happy is

Happy is the child carrying a doll coz she atleast has one
Happy is the begger who standing at the traffic light full day gets a sum
Happy is a bird who just discovers its wings
Happy is me who knows a language to express my feelings

Happy is a lady who gets a seat in the bus full on goons
Happy is the mother who can see her child playing in monsoon
Happy is a father seeing his child getting a degree
Happy is me who can feel the happiness in not just what I see

Happy is the lover who gets to wait for his lover outside a park
Happy is a family who gets electricity before it gets too dark
Happy is the husband who sees his wife loving him
Happy is me who can see the brighness even when its dim

Happy is the guy who catches the last bus to home
Happy is the one who gets to sit in free wi fi zone
Happy is one who gets love of his friends
Happy is me who doesn't know where it ends

Happy is the woman who can feel a life growing inside her
Happy is the one who after the storm can see the sky clear
Happy is the one who can feel the water on his feet
Happy is me who can love and gets to meet him

Happy is everyone who can appreciate the beauty
Happy is everyone who can find happiness in small things
Happy is everyone who knows how to accept a blessing
Happy is me who is part of us and everything

Miss you more

I think of you
A million times
And I tell that to you
Only few times

You are a part of me
And will always be
I cannot separate
Myself from you

Every second that passes
Every breath that I take
I say you name
I wish you well
And I miss you more
And I miss you more

Always love you

You are a part of me
And I feel you
I have been too scared to have you
But now I have you

I'm sorry to say that I didn't want you
The things that you could've brought scared me
I have been a coward and not fair
Even though I'm the reason you're there

Now you are here
And it's so beautiful
How can it be so amazing
Motherhood is the best thing in world
And you've made me happy
We will always love you
Keep you near our heart, me and your daddy!

Careful what you wish for

I have wanted you to move on
I have wanted you to go away
I had seen you crying for me
And I wished to see that hope's ray

Months have passed
And we have been away
We wished each other's wellness
And missed the old days

Now we don't talk often
And I miss you every single day
Though I wouldn't say it to you
But that's the truth

Now when I talk to you
I don't feel its all same
Either you are too strong
Or you actually have moved on
I'd end this by saying what Daughtry has said
"Careful what you wish for
You just might get it all"

In the rain

Things have been not been the same
I knew, I could sense it
I was trying hard to make  better
And do something to be back again

But I didn't know this would happen
Can't believe you said those words
Is our love really over
Can we not be what we used  be

I want to try to be us again
But I cannot put in the  effort myself
Now I'm out walking on the road
And silently crying in the rain

We can't be

You have been away
And I had to accept
I tried to forget you
And endless nights I wept

Now you are here
And I don't know what to do
Things have changed between us
And you and me too

Do I still know you?
Do you know the new me?
Can we still love each other?
We have changed, Can't you see?

What we had was beautiful
And I needed nothing when I had you
But now its all different
And I know you feel it too

So I'm the one who's gonna say
It's not a price, I'm ready to repay
And I know, you agree
That No, we can't be