Better off

I wish to be something else
and I turn out to be someone else
I try to pretend to be better
Unknown territories in which my mind delves

I want to be somebody
and work hard to be it
When my mind doesn't support it
When it's someone else who takes the credit

I wonder at things that happen around me
and wonder at their reality
and then the reality of my own self
and of my heart's fragility

Then I dream to be that one
Which I don't know if I am capable of
or if I deserve to have it
Then, I decide in my current situation I am better off!