Meaningful

How does it feel to be alone
Does it feel independent
Does it feel free
Do you never feel that need
The need of togetherness
Of care and love
Of being able to fight on something
Which is so trivial
Yet so important
Coz that's what make you feel loved
And wanted
And feels that the life is nothing
Without it
And is.. meaningful
With your love!

Understand

Don't know why I still have that expectation
Still have that feeling
Of you wanting me
Of you longing for me

But every time you make me realise
Whenever we talk
That you are not there anymore
That you've moved on

I promise other people what I feel
That I know it's not possible
That I have accepted it
But then again I come face to face with you
Which makes me realise who am I pretending to

They say there is always hope
They say it can always go bad
What I can do to understand
I cannot have, what I had

Judge me....

Don't judge me by the words I had said
Don't judge me by the stories that I read
Don't judge me by the extent to which I drank
Don't judge me by the grief in which I sank

Judge me by my actions
Judge me by the love I poured
Judge me by the look in my eyes
Judge me not by end, but ord

Don't judge me with what others say
Don't judge me by how I reacted yesterday
Don't judge me by the tears that I shed
Don't judge me with the words unsaid

Judge me with what I mean to you
Judge me with what you always knew
Judge me with what your heart says
I'm very simple, not a maze!

What we mask?

Do you like yourself I ask
Yes, I love myself she says
So can I leave you here by yourself?
You come with yourself face to face

I wonder what they did without technology
For they had no means to understand
To be with oneself or others
To cherish our sea, skies and land

She came to me and asked me why?
Was it a test for me, she asks
I said it's the reality of humanity
With this fancy artificial beauty
Our reality we mask!

Thinking about....

Today here,
Sitting in my room
I think of you
What you might be doing
About whom you might be thinking

Is it the pressure of work
Or you think about home
Do I know of this thought of yours
Or to me it's unknown?

And lastly I ask if it's possible
Please answer me without a doubt
Do you think of me at times?
Is it me you are thinking about?

Incarnations

I want you more than I need
I have loved you from my heart, indeed
I do not know if this would change
Are we gonna remain estranged?

I think of you in every heartbeat
This empty love box, who's gonna feed?
I cannot ask you to come back to me
But it's the fate of river to be one with the sea

I can wait and I have to
Coz love doesn't change with worldly separations
We are here to be with each other
It's just a matter of few incarnations!

Bit by bit

When the mind roams around
It seeks the sky, seeks the ground
It may be confused with the questions it has
May not understand a thing, dwelling in the past

The world may not provide all the answers
Even if one searches he comes back empty handed
I may not understand all the complexities

But just being here, my vision expanded

The life moves and the people change
The beauty of change is hard to understand
We walk, we fly, we flow with it
It unpeels itself bit by bit

What can love do?

I love somebody in my heart
But my heart doesn't open all the cards
Do you know what its like?
To love somebody and still feel clueless

The personality matches someone I know
But still not same from head to toe
Do you think this is where I should go?
Or keep moving, my boat's meant to be rowed

Do you sometimes feel that fire?
Not worrying about the consequences
Which can be dire
You just keep on lighting the flame
It's not something you want to tame

Do you sometimes feel you want to surrender?
Be the disciple, it's only love you remember
Do you think love can do that to you?
In the ocean of fire, peacefully you sail through

Rust

Thousands of thoughts come to mind
There are things I still need to find
There are moments when I don't know if its real
Or if somebody feels the way I feel

Is it normal to feel this way
Be in love with you and still be miles away
To want you with every breath of mine
Drenched in the ocean of sadness and still shine

It's just me or everybody
Is the water clear or too muddy
Is that what time does to us
Bright from outside, inside we rust!

Promised call

The promised call that never came
The endless wait, all in vain
Measuring the distance she said she'd cover
Giving a landmark for him to discover

He searched for the place in that area vast
He covered the distance slow and fast
For her to be given just one more chance
Going from being sad to aghast

The promised call that never came
Seasons passed, summer and rain
He still waited around that old phone
People said he's suffering from some syndrome

He didn't know how to wait anymore
Sit beside the phone or at the door
Seasons have been harsh, time was cruel
The endless wait was his only fuel

He wasn't sure if he should wait
Or leave everything to his fate
But he knew he needed more
Something to look forward to
Something to live for